Is it wrong to miss someone who has left you for unknown reasons? Is it wrong to still want to be with the person who left your heart in a thousand pieces? Is it wrong to love someone who doesn't want to do anything to do with you anymore?
It was said in the movie London (starring Jessica Biel, Chris Evans, Jason Statham) that "It takes a third of the amount of time to recover from a relationship as the relationship was long. So for example, if the relationship lasted a year you'll be good in 4 months, 2 years you'll be clean in 8."
Normally I wouldn't write my personal musings here (I usually talk about them through YM) or I'd write a poem regarding such. The reason behind this is two-fold. The first part is for the past months I haven't finished a single poem I've started on. Even my novel has been somewhat neglected. It seems I am bereft of the inspiration that I was once overflowing with. The second part is I don't to be too much of a bother to my friends. I know my friends tell me that I am not a bother when i buzz them out of the blue and I know they truly mean it. But I also understand that they are also busy with their own situations in life. This was the only way for me to ease the burden in my chest.
6 years and 7 months. Those were the best times of my life. Smiles, tears, laughters and cheers. I cherished each and every moment. I was the happiest person in the whole world.
1 year and 3 months. The most trying times in my life. I never wanted to wake up knowing I've lost the most important person in my life. Stumbling through the months. If not for friends, who lent their hands, who carried part of my burdens, I would have fallen into the abyss.
I've tried to move on. I spent time with friends which eased the pain a lot. Yet there were times that the sadness silently crept in. For a time I thought I could live my life without thinking about her, for a time I did. But now I realize that was not who I am and I was running away from the pain. I gave my heart and my life for her and eventhough it might cause me pain from here on, still no one can replace her. I don't dispute the advice given to me by my friends, but I know I can't be anyone else but me.
With these things said, I hope I can return to who I was, be at peace with myself and find my inspiration once again.
Thanks to each and everyone who has stayed by my side, given me advice and listened to my pains. (my blockmates, cherry, mshel, steph, cha, tina, ash, khen, riza, joyce, joan, tweety, marvin, lester, mon and lea)
It was said in the movie London (starring Jessica Biel, Chris Evans, Jason Statham) that "It takes a third of the amount of time to recover from a relationship as the relationship was long. So for example, if the relationship lasted a year you'll be good in 4 months, 2 years you'll be clean in 8."
Normally I wouldn't write my personal musings here (I usually talk about them through YM) or I'd write a poem regarding such. The reason behind this is two-fold. The first part is for the past months I haven't finished a single poem I've started on. Even my novel has been somewhat neglected. It seems I am bereft of the inspiration that I was once overflowing with. The second part is I don't to be too much of a bother to my friends. I know my friends tell me that I am not a bother when i buzz them out of the blue and I know they truly mean it. But I also understand that they are also busy with their own situations in life. This was the only way for me to ease the burden in my chest.
6 years and 7 months. Those were the best times of my life. Smiles, tears, laughters and cheers. I cherished each and every moment. I was the happiest person in the whole world.
1 year and 3 months. The most trying times in my life. I never wanted to wake up knowing I've lost the most important person in my life. Stumbling through the months. If not for friends, who lent their hands, who carried part of my burdens, I would have fallen into the abyss.
I've tried to move on. I spent time with friends which eased the pain a lot. Yet there were times that the sadness silently crept in. For a time I thought I could live my life without thinking about her, for a time I did. But now I realize that was not who I am and I was running away from the pain. I gave my heart and my life for her and eventhough it might cause me pain from here on, still no one can replace her. I don't dispute the advice given to me by my friends, but I know I can't be anyone else but me.
With these things said, I hope I can return to who I was, be at peace with myself and find my inspiration once again.
Thanks to each and everyone who has stayed by my side, given me advice and listened to my pains. (my blockmates, cherry, mshel, steph, cha, tina, ash, khen, riza, joyce, joan, tweety, marvin, lester, mon and lea)
